Thursday, September 1, 2016

Goodbye, My Almost Lover


Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me


Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do


We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So now you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?


Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do


I may regret doing what I am doing right now. But I think this is the best and only way for me to cop with these heartbreak. I am done being an option. I want to be someone's priority. I want to be with someone who value my worth and not only see me as an alternative when they're lonely. I don't want to be used anymore. I am not a toy. I have feelings and I have to start to take care of my heart. I want someone who love me with all their heart and would fight to be with me. Because I'd do all that.

I'm sorry. I don't know if things are gonna be like they used to. I hope you understand. Please gimme some time to mend my heartbreak. Just a simple message from you could do me so much harm, and I need to overcome that.

I am not that strong. I am weak. You are one of my greatest weakness and you are toxic to me.

When I'm done healing, maybe we can be like the good old times. I don't know. We'll see.